What this is...

Seems me here now doing this (nice huh?) is relevant to my need for expressing, and expunging.......(ew. never really liked that word... (i`m too tactile))
I do not want to be one of those poor people who feel a place like this is for their own weaknesses and whinings, but it seems that that has come to be. So be it. You may have noticed by now (muffled snickers) that i put myself through a great deal of turmoil in trying to find my words and wisdoms, and i expect this struggle to continue for awhile longer. Maybe, when i`m done (more muffled snickering) I will have uncovered some grand singular purpose and can begin anew. I'm hoping. I guess if you get tired (or whatever) of watching me lift up my band-aid(tm) to peek at the mess underneath, you can always just go on your merry little way and leave me to my dichotomous devices.

Am I repeating myself too much?