oh, this...

Oh, my poor little bloggy thing, I have forgotten you.
I burst in on this thing with no purpose and left you alone to forget yourself.
I am sorry.
I have wandered away to other things and places. And I see you sitting here alone and feel saddened... so sorry. But I do not know if I have what it takes to keep you alive. Most other people have all these wonderful things to say, to contribute, to enlighten us about.
And I don't think I have anything like that.
In my other wanderings I found a place that held alot of promise. But I am finding that my head is up against the wall there, as much as it was here. I guess I just don't know where to put myself. I am trying to be on this dammed `healing journey`, and I am clueless about how to go about it. I so just want to get it all out, but feel that to do so would be to burden someone else with this shit, and I would never want to do that. Or maybe I'm just scared to. I am just a big scaredy cat. but lost, where do i go? maybe searching more? there is a whole world out there, and I am surely limiting myself to stay in these shallow little ponds...
I don't know. but i will be back here, if only to remind myself.
bye.
I have this huge craving to get into the doom and darkness, and the Type O Negative of it all. Careful not to wallow too deep...