hmmmm

what if i have too much to say. what if i cant stop. what if it wants to be a need. what if it needs to be a constant. what if i get confused. what if i dont know what to do. what if i/it runs away with me. what if i cant catch up. what if i feel stupid. what if i dont know. what if i cant stop. what if i repeated myself. what if i wonder what you think. what if i try to stop myself. what if i just dont fucking care. what if it doesnt matter. what if im glad. what if i want to laugh at the twisted irony of it. what if i dont care if you dont understand. what if i just stop, and breathe, and be kind, and dont rush. what if i had a funny way to wrap this up.


go easy with me, there is newness, and maybe a bit of scared.
who knows why, maybe doesnt matter

i have to not be mean to me.
and im so much meaner than you.